This hurts, maybe to the depth of my earth, But I feel what it’s worth, the girth, of it all, makes my heart feel to tall, To come down and feel the warmth of yours, So my mind is doing all of these chores to try and figure out where this mess is,
To reveal this pile of dirty clothes that’s stinking up the house of my mind, Making it so hard to find, The ability to love without selfishness, To give and not over do selflessness, It’s a sickening feeling of helplessness,
All I wanted to do was be there Wash your clothes, do your dishes, Drag you out of that life you’ve been livin, Maybe just a chance to unwrap and show you the presents you would’ve been given,
I wanted to blow you up with a love you wouldn’t want nothing but, I wanted to build something from the combination of what our hearts would equal, Mold it into a happiness that would be a void filling sequel,
I wanted to run my hands over all that you are, And show you what it’s like to receive beautiful scars, Ones that you would look at ten years from now with me, and see, The wonder in each line of the pain, The vivid purpose in each busted vein,
I just wanted to be that first definition of love you’d ever read in this dictionary of life, But you were too smart, Too in touch with your heart, To know that my hands would not craft that temple around your heart, So thank you for not letting me start,
I had to swallow a stone that was my pride, My chest cavity was torn so wide, Like a dead leg to the brain as the thoughts of her whoever she is, With the opportunity and the privilege, to hold you, To be the owner of that twinkle in your eye, Envy was a fire that burned too high,
But that stone laid across the flames at the pit of who I am, Again I thank you, I’ll walk now and smear glitter on this brand, Keep me around are my words to you, Talking to you every couple of months won’t do,At some point I want to hear about you two, How she’s a bitch, how she’s perfect, how when she walks she just works it. I swallowed that boulder, my throat’s still sore, But I want to be around for whatever you got in store.
I’ve missed you so much I wish you could see, I’ve missed you so much more than you could ever miss those Zzz’s, I know you think it’s those trees, that keep you stable, But your smile makes my world stable, Every joke you crack makes my heart okay, It’s been a while Since your eyes didn’t show me how much that anger’s swayed, You better know that you’ve more than worth, My heart and my time, And we all wanna be here to see you go off and blow our minds, With those jokes and your skatin, Show the world just what great is, I swear sometimes I can feel your heart, And I wish you would let me start, To love those walls apart, But it’s been so long and you’re still thinking that you’re being smart, By caging parts of yourself from me, But you’re just making this world lonely, I wish you felt what I do when I’ve held you, All the tears we’ve witnessed aren’t any weak points, They’re check points in the chaos, You’ve let me love you but never all the way, And it breaks my heart I must say, I wish you would trust me so I could show you, All of this is worth every breath and suffocation, You take care of me so on call like no other, I know you always got me covered, Stop letting this life smother you Booby, You got casted in this role, Without you we ain’t shooting, I love you more than any of the rest of them, You hurry up and start learning how to value what I’ve been givin. You make loving you so impossible, But I’ll continue through all the visits you drive me to take at the mental hospital, Let this sink in, I know you never let anyone lay anchor on any level deep enough but too bad, No, I don’t respect the walls you build, screw them, You make my heart stay cheesin, I need more of your smile, to anyone else don’t mind my reasons. I don’t love you like we should be together, I love you like you should admire that I’ll be here forever.